The confrontation between Scott Disick and the entire Kardashian family finally aired last night on "Keeping Up with the Kardashians" -- and man, was it hard to watch.
Kourtney Kardashian remained fairly silent the entire time, as Scott attempted to apologize for stepping out on his baby mama (and getting photographed sharing serious PDA) with Chloe Bartoli. With Kourt keeping quiet, Khloe Kardashian really put her sister's man in the hot seat.
First, Scott opened up about why this has been such a hard time for him.
"Being an only child and not even having parents, it's very scary," he started out. "I realize I'm in the wrong, I've been in the wrong for a long time. If you didn't have one person alive in your family when you were going through your divorce with Lamar [Odom], you wouldn't be doing all that well. You guys are super super lucky that you have each other."
Khloe said he's the one that got him into this situation in the first place and they gave him a family, but he screwed it up.
"It's just been a really hard time going from like having all of you guys to having nobody, you know? But I'm like living in a house by myself you know I want to pick up the phone and call my mom and dad and be like, 'Tell me how the hell on your side do I like figure this out? Should I go somewhere? Should I do something?'"
"It's just not as easy as you think when you have addiction issues and like I'm just so ashamed that like I publicly embarrassed all of you," he continued. "You guys really did so much for me for so many years and it's just, it kills me to the point where I feel like I can't make it up."
Though he was wearing sunglasses to hide his tears, Disick was clearly getting emotional as he spoke the next words.
"You know how many times I've wanted to come over and sit with you and just explain and go through all of the reasons of how I've got here? I've never been this unhappy in my life," he went on. "It's like, it's just terrible but like if I didn't have those kids I would kill myself. But I have them and I'm gonna be here and I'm gonna make it right for them. You know I just hope somehow, not that I'm religious but God could give me a chance or us a chance at this or something because like I just know that I'll never have the happiness that I would have otherwise and it's been nice having you guys in my life for so long so it's weird to lose that many people that quick you know?"
Kourtney only spoke up once during the tense pow wow, telling Scott she wants a man who "also helps me, not just that I'm helping" -- with Scott agreeing that yes, she needs "somebody that you can stand on."
In a confessional, she added that she believes he means he wants to change, but concedes he "doesn't know how to get there."
"I want to be able to be the man that you've always wanted. I could party I could go out every night I could do whatever, it's not the life that I really want," he added at the end of the episode. "I know what I want and I may not get it but I know that I would literally hate myself for the rest of my life if I didn't at least try and I realize that if I don't make a change now like it'll never be able to be OK and it may not be but I'm damn well gonna try and I wanted you guys to know that and I wanted to see you guys and I just love you all and miss you guys so much you know?"
He then took off before the credits rolled.
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