'Real Housewives' Star Erika Girardi Teases the 'Personal' Reason Behind Emotional Breakdown in Hong Kong

Lisa Rinna put Kemlsey on the spot for insinuating Rinna was on drugs after the two "shared a laugh" over Rinna's Xanax smoothies. Rinna felt betrayed, and an eerily similar argument ensued over who said what to whom.

Erika chimed in, so TooFab reached out for an explanation. Here's what the "XXPEN$IVE" singer had to say:

TooFab: You and Dorit have been at odds all season, and you guys had a pretty big spat on the boat. Why did you feel that was the time to speak up?

Girardi: Because I was there, so I was just reporting what I saw. I was in Mexico when the whole conversation came up about Xanax smoothies.

You called her a "bulls---ter” when she was being attacked for having brought up Lisa Rinna's Xanax smoothies, and you came across very passionately. Can you elaborate further? Have you had loved ones affected by substance abuse?

I was talking about the way she's treating me, that's why I brought up the bulls--t thing. That has nothing to do with the Xanax.

Dorit said you two were in a better place after the reunion. Is that true?

That's right, she's right. 100 percent. I'm not going to give away the show, but we are definitely in a better place. She's absolutely correct.

We see you break down in part 2 of Hong Kong, and the ladies seem to be comforting you. Lisa Vanderpump even says, "The ice queen is melting." Anything you can tell me about that?

Yes, I got upset about something, and it's something personal in my life. It has nothing to do with the women in the group.

Can you elaborate at all on that?

You're going to have to watch and see it. I just told you, it's very personal.

I'm sure you're sick of talking about #PantyGate, but Dorit told us it came up at the reunion and she explained (again) it was intended as a joke. Did any feelings change for you after rehashing it?

Well, a lot of time has passed since #PantyGate, and I think she realizes exactly what I said, which was the more you talk about shit, the worse it gets. And she understands that things tend to have a life of their own and they're constantly repeated, and while it was a joke, I was the brunt of the joke, and then they wouldn't let the joke go, so that's really where the issue is with that. I can take a joke, believe me, but when people choose to keep that alive and choose to make it something over and over again, that's no longer a joke.

So is that in the past now?

Yes, I would definitely say we've come a long way since then. I think that Dorit has learned a lot through her first season. I think that she's figured it out. It's tough when you come in and you're new and you navigate this whole group and you navigate being on television. It's definitely difficult, and I said that to her at the end, and we left at a different place than we were months ago, and that's a positive step in the right direction.

What else can you tell us about the reunion? I hear there was screaming, crying and a walk off. Can you tell me anything about that?

There's the usual…people have words with each other, there's a walk off, people get upset. There are tears and all that kind of dramatic shit.

Was it more dramatic than the last reunion you were a part of?

No, because last year had Yolanda who was fighting a real illness. No one here is sick, so you really can't compare that. The level of seriousness last year ... it was much more serious. I mean, she was ill, this year people are just pissed at each other.

Did the reunion shed some resolution on anything?

That's an individual question. I walked out the reunion feeling great. I've spoken with all the girls afterwards. I don't harbor any ill will, but you'd have to ask others how they feel, but for me, I feel fine.

Would you be open to coming back to the show if you were to be asked back?

Well, I mean, if I was asked. We'll see.

Congrats on being called back to shoot "The Young and the Restless" again. I understand you shot with Peter Bergman who was on “All My Children,” which you were a big fan of growing up. Can you tell me about that? How was the shoot?

Yes, and I was intimidated. 100 percent. Not only was I a fan of his, he is a consummate professional. He knows this job backwards and forwards. Here I am some amateur, and I'm like, 'Oh my God, jeez, please help me through this.' He was lovely. He was kind, and thank you so much, Peter.

Eileen said Peter sang your praises.

Oh, that's nice to know because I'm gonna tell you something ... Honey, I was nervous. That's really nice to know. Thank you.