The country superstar opens up about her struggles to have a second child with husband Mike Fisher during an appearance on "CBS Sunday Morning."
During an appearance on "CBS Sunday Morning," Carrie Underwood opened up about her struggles to get pregnant over the past two years, resulting in three miscarriages.
The country superstar credits her faith with getting her through, and with her current pregnancy after two years of challenges, including a devastating fall from her porch in November 2017 that led to nearly 50 stitches on her face.
But for Underwood that pain was nothing to the recurring trauma of getting pregnant only to learn later that she'd lost the baby. "I'm like, 'If we can never have any other kids, that's okay, because he's amazing.' And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can't. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.
She said she'd always been afraid to be angry. But finally, "I got mad."
And so she channeled those feelings into her writing process for her music. "I feel like there's several songs on the album that came from that, you know, or I connect with in a totally different way because of those experiences that we went through," Underwood said.
According to Underwood, the single "Cry Pretty" is about how "you put this face on for the world," because that's what she was doing through so much of her pain.
"I would literally have these horrible things going on in my life, and then have to go smile and, like, do some interviews or, like, do a photo shoot or something, you know?" she said. "So it was just kind of, like, therapeutic, I guess."
Finally, after fearing she'd had yet another miscarriage, Underwood turned to her faith with a sort of desperate prayer. "I was like, 'Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can't have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid.'
"And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt. And I feel, like, we're supposed to do that. That was like a Saturday – and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great!"
And for now, it certainly seems that way. Underwood is currently enjoying a healthy pregnancy and planning a spring tour, where her new baby will join her.