"I got to such a low point that I considered ending it," Dykstra said regarding the months after she accused her ex Hardwick of abuse.
Dykstra spoke to Time in her first interview since lodging the accusations against the media mogul.
"After months of reading horrible things about myself," she told the publication, "I got to such a low point that I considered ending it. I didn’t really have guidance because you can’t really Google, 'How to handle being an accuser?'"
The actress published a lengthy blog post in June, detailing years of abuse at the hands of an unnamed former boyfriend. While the alleged abuser was never identified by name, it was clear to most readers she was talking about Nerdist founder Hardwick. The accusations temporarily resulted in the TV personality and media pioneer being suspended from the majority of his television and event hosting gigs -- with Nerdist further distancing themselves from the scandal by erasing him from their about page (he had separated from the company prior to the accusations).
Hardwick denied all of the allegations at the time and in the subsequent months many former girlfriends and pals in the media came to his defense. AMC has since reinstated him as host of "The Talking Dead."
"When I found out he had gotten his jobs back," Dykstra said in her Time interview, "I was actually relieved because I knew [the online harassment] wasn’t going to stop until he was reinstated."
She went on to claim she was surprised by the media storm her accusations against Hardwick caused.
"I opened trending and saw my face," Dykstra said of logging on to Twitter the day after she published her essay. "It was the most terrifying thing I have ever experienced. I was just like, 'No, no, no.'"
"I was attacked relentlessly. There was an organized group of people online whose sole purpose was to try to disprove me," she said. "I was terrified people were going to figure out where I lived."
Meanwhile, Hardwick, who had canceled his panel moderating gigs at San Diego Comic-Con this past July due to the allegations, will be making a return to the scene in October. The nerd-hero is set to host a "Walking Dead" panel at New York Comic-Con.