"I vowed from that age, no man would ever treat me like that. And then all of the sudden, that was my life," Minaj reveals in her upcoming documentary.
Nicki Minaj is sharing a softer, more vulnerable side with her fans by opening up about her experience with domestic violence.
On Tuesday night, the 35-year-old rapper released two teasers for her upcoming documentary, "Queen," in which she describes how growing up in a violent household led to her own experience with physical and emotional abuse.
"I remember when my mother would let my father be violent with her," a soft-spoken Minaj revealed in the preview, fighting back tears. "And she always brings up this story: As a little girl, I would stand in front of my mother and go like this [with my arms out]. That's why some people people would describe me as abrasive or bitchy or whatever, because I vowed from that age, no man would ever be with me, call me out my name, treat me like that. And then all of the sudden, that was my life."
"Who was I gonna inspire when I had nothing in me to give?" she said in reference to a particular relationship. "Like, I let one human being make me so low that I didn't even remember who I was. I was scared to get in the studio. I didn't believe in myself."
Minaj said it wasn't until she "changed locations" -- first to Miami and then back to New York -- that things started looking up for her both personally and professionally.
"I started catching a vibe," she said, adding that was then able to crank out hits including "Good Form" and "Coco Chanel."
In the teasers, Nicki never reveals the name of her abuser, but many fans on social media seem to think they've cracked the code.
Shortly after Nicki shared her documentary clips to Instagram, her ex-boyfriend, Meek Mill, reposted an unusual message on his own social media from an account with the name @narcissist.sociopath.awarenes2. Meek captioned the shot, "Lol."
"When cornered, they'll lash out by claiming that THEY are the real victim," the message read. "Their story will detail your drinking problem, depression, low-self-esteem, financial woes, etc. -- thereby gaining the sympathy of their fan club. Meanwhile, YOU will be isolated and confused while this aggressive campaign transpires. And when you emerge, the trap will have been set."
Needless to say, fans took Meek's untimely post as an admittance of guilt and quickly flooded his comments section with messages of support, hate and everything in between. Some of the replies include:
She never said a name. Why you sounding guilty?
I knew you abused Nicki physically and verbally. Guilty conscience is killing you already even without her mentioning [a] name.
Making a woman look crazy when she is upset and telling her truth and then misdiagnosing her as being narcissistic is disgusting.
Facts. I'm glad you left that drug addict Nicki alone. She insane.
A HIT DOG WILL HOLLER. Nobody mentioned your name. You told on yourself and I hope you go back to jail. I can't believe we supported you, and you put your hands on her and wouldn't let her work. You not the man I thought you were, and that's what hurts!!
Reps for both Nicki Minaj and Meek Mill did not immediately respond to TooFab's request for comment.
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