"In my relationship at the time, things were up and down and on and off, and so I didn't know what was gonna happen," she says.
Ariana Grande just dropped a serious bombshell: There are three different versions of her smash single, "Thank U, Next."
The pop princess opened up about how the track came to fruition on a recent episode of The Zach Sang Show, revealing one version actually anticipated she'd walk down the aisle with "Saturday Night Live" star and former fiancé Pete Davidson.
"In my relationship at the time, things were up and down and on and off, and so I didn't know what was gonna happen," she said, avoiding using Pete's name. "And then we got back together, so I had to make a different version of it, and then we broke up again, so we ended up going with that version. There was a version where I was getting married, there's a version where I'm not getting married, there's a version with nothing -- [where] we're not talking about anything. But we all knew that the first version was gonna be the version that we ultimately went with."
"I just wanted to cover all the bases," she continued. "It was a big risk and a very scary thing to do because it is my life. I understand that, to a lot of people, I'm not a real person. It's easy to kind of see me as a song or a picture or a thing that kind of exists in their head, and they know what they know and that's it. But at the end of the day, these are people and relationships that have--"
The singer choked up and paused to collect herself. "I'm a little bitch," she said with a smile. "I'm like tearing up. It's real shit to me. It is real life. I've spent a lot of time with each of those people -- learning and shit -- so it was scary to put in a song."
Ari said she knew that once she released the version that named names, there would be no turning back.
"It became super real," she said. "Putting it in a song makes it very, 'Okay, cool, we definitely just closed that chapter.'"
Ariana didn't divulge too many details about the alternate versions of "Thank U, Next," but she did say they were "less direct."
"I think I said, 'They say I'm too young, I got too many boyfriends.' I was just talking about what people say about me," she explained. "So it still was like, okay, I'm embracing my mistakes and what I've done and everything that's contributed to who I am, but it was just less direct. And everyone -- including me -- was kind of like, 'This is not the version.' But I was also trying to be protective."
"I was very nervous to share it because, I knew that as soon as people heard the names, they were gonna be like, 'Run that back one more time. What the f--k is she doing? What the f--k is she doing?'" Ariana said. "My mom was like -- she's just never been happier. My mom was like, 'That's just the best song I've ever heard in my life.' Because anyone who knows me, knows how Joan Grande has felt about every relationship I've ever been in. She has been so supportive and patient and bit her tongue and been a fantastic mother. That song is for my mom's closure, and also a thank you to her for helping me through a lot of this shit."
When Zach asked Ariana who had given her the most pushback about releasing the final version of "Thank U, Next," she simply tilted her head, blinked heavily and smiled. She eventually nodded and gave Zach a salute. We're assuming that meant Pete.
"Everyone that I'm still in touch with has been very supportive," she said, revealing she had sent the song to Big Sean prior to release and that he loved it.
"It was really funny. He was like, 'Damn, I'm the first one, huh?' And I was like, 'I mean, I went kind of in order!' But yeah, he was very supportive. He loved it," she said, adding that Ricky Alvarez also loved the song.
"He was proud," Ari said. "But Ricky was like, 'Why'd I get the worst line?' And I was like, 'What do you mean?!' He was like, 'Everyone else's line is so nice, and mine is like, 'Man, f--k him. He's trash.' I was like, 'I could've said that!'"
Listen to Ariana's full interview in the video below.
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