"I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss," she says.
Hilaria Baldwin's pregnancy announcement was not as joyful as she hoped it would be.
On Thursday morning, Alec Baldwin's wife revealed via a gut-wrenching Instagram post that she was expecting her fifth child with the actor. Unfortunately, the 35-year-old said she was "likely experiencing a miscarriage."
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View Story"I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss," she explained. "I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies, and I don't want to keep this from you just because it isn't as positive and shiny as the rest."
Hilaria didn't say exactly how far along she is, but most women are encouraged to keep their pregnancies private until they pass the "safe" mark, around the 12th week. She said she felt it was "important to show the truth" to be able to "normalize miscarriage," which happens far more often than we think it does. Hilaria wants to "remove the stigma from it."
"I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience," she shared. "There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting. I'm nauseous, tired, my body is changing. I have to pretend that everything is just fine -- and it truly isn't. I don't want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand."
Hilaria then went into detail about the status of her baby, who she said "isn't growing very much."
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View Story"The embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn't strong," she explained. "So we wait -- and this is hard. So much uncertainty, but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy."
Despite the possibility of a loss, Hilaria has "complete confidence" that she and her family "will get through this, even if the journey is difficult."
"I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends and my loving family," she said. "My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly. The luck and gratitude I feel that I am my baby's mommy is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting."
She also asked those commenting on her vulnerable post to "please be kind," adding, "I'm feeling a bit fragile, and I need support. I'm hoping that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic."
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