"If no one was with me, I would've been dead. That's what's freaking me out," Bethenny sobs.
Bethenny tweeted about the incident when it happened back in December, but she went into much more and much scarier detail on Thursday's episode of the Bravo series.
"I got back from being in Boston with my boyfriend yesterday, and the two prior days, I spent in ICU in Boston because I had an anaphylactic shock incident," Bethenny recalled. "Paul brought me a hot miso soup. Miso itself doesn't have fish in it, [but] this particular miso soup had bonito in it, which is this type of fish flakes."
"I have had a severe fish allergy my entire life," she explained, which viewers at home have seen her freak out about numerous times before. "Paul left to get the Benadryl, and he came back three minutes later, and I was unconscious. He managed to get Benadryl and water down my throat and call 9-1-1."
"Paul saved my life," she said with tears in her eyes. "He was trying to act like everything was okay, but his face, his eyes, he looked so worried. But he was keeping it together. He was totally calm."
Bethenny sobbed as she called Sonja Morgan from bed.
"I'm home. It was brutal," B said to a worried Son. "I just drank a cup of hot soup, and it's happened before where I feel a little itchy or bumpy, and then I felt my hands get really swollen. Like, they just got super tight. And Paul was like, 'Do you want me to get you a Benadryl?'"
"Paul was like seeing if I was breathing, and I was drooling," she blubbered. "I was in the ambulance, and they jammed like this rocket pen in my leg. I got to the ER, and then I heard the guy say, if it had been five more minutes that I would've passed away. It was just like not real. And then they were like, 'You're going to the ICU.' And if no one was with me, I would've been dead. That's what's freaking me out -- if I was alone. I don't wanna be alone now."
After hanging up with Sonja, Bethenny's housekeeper came over to sit on her bed with her. Bethenny continued to sob as the two hugged in silence.
Later, in a conversation with her driver, Bethenny recalled feeling the presence of her late boyfriend, Dennis Shields, while she was in and out of consciousness.
"Do you wanna hear the craziest thing ever?" she said. "So when I was going to the emergency room, like in the middle of all the craziness, I felt Dennis pulling at me. I didn't think it; I felt it. I felt that he was pulling me."
"But now, I'm done with him," she added. "I talk about him too much. I bring him up, I bring up his sayings, I bring up everything. I'm done. It's over. That is over. Let me be. You go be where you are, and I'm gonna stay here."
In a tearful confessional, she explained, "I'll always love Dennis. I talk about him, I think about him every single day, but he always wanted me to be happy, ultimately. He would always say to me, 'You will find someone who will love you and treat you the way that you deserve to be treated.' It was some sort of closure with Dennis. 'I'm not going with you.'"
In less somber news, Luann de Lesseps had her Christmas cabaret show, and everyone came, except for Bethenny and Ramona Singer. Bethenny was still recovering from her near-death experience, and Ramona simply didn't want to go; however, she blamed it on having to set up Sonja and Dorinda Medley's joint surprise party, which she just so happened to plan for that same night.
Luann invited the ladies to come hang with her in her dressing room before the show, but as soon as they got there, she rushed them out so that she could finish getting ready. As expected, that really ground Dorinda's gears. Then later, when Ramona got wind that Luann was selling religious candles with her face on them, she lost it. But Lu didn't seem to care.
What bothered Dorinda more than Lu's self-righteous behavior was coming to the realization that she knew nothing about Tinsley Mortimer, even after two years of being on the show. Ever since Tinsley broke up with Scott mid-season, Dorinda's been wondering if the two had set up some sort of "arrangement," given that Tinsley's affluent lifestyle hadn't changed one bit.
Dorinda, Sonja and Ramona decided to corner Tinsley with their suspicions, which set Tinsley all the way off. She insisted she and Scott were broken up but had no real explanation as to how she gets her money.
More on that during the "RHONY" Season 11 reunion, which kicks off next Thursday at 9 p.m. on Bravo.
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