"I had what I thought was a very happy marriage," Weinstein's ex says in a new profile for Vogue.
Marchesa designer Georgina Chapman is speaking out for her estranged husband Harvey Weinstein's alleged behavior for the first time since the sexual harassment and assault scandal broke back in October.
In an interview with Vogue conducted in February and March of this year and just printed online, Chapman said she honestly knew nothing about what her husband was reportedly doing behind closed doors, explained why she's been in hiding and broke down while discussing the former couple's children.
"I lost 10 pounds in five days. I couldn't keep food down," Chapman told the publication, reflecting on when she first heard the multiple allegations against the movie mogul. "My head was spinning. And it was difficult because the first article was about a time long before I'd ever met him, so there was a minute where I couldn't make an informed decision. And then the stories expanded and I realized that this wasn't an isolated incident. And I knew that I needed to step away and take the kids out of here."
"That's what makes this so incredibly painful: I had what I thought was a very happy marriage. I loved my life," she continued. When asked if she was ever "suspicious" about him, Chapman responded, "Absolutely not. Never ... I've never been one of those people who obsesses about where someone is."
Chapman and Weinstein first met back in 2004, before tying the knot in 2007. They welcomed two children together before the designer filed for divorce following the scandal.
"Well, he's a wonderful father to my kids. But initially? He's charismatic. He's an incredibly bright, very learned man. And very charitable," she said, describing why she was attracted to him in the first place. She went on to say he was a "wonderful partner" for her and "a friend and a confidant and a supporter."
Georgina told the magazine she has seen a therapist recently to deal with the fallout. "At first I couldn't, because I was too shocked. And I somehow felt that I didn't deserve it. And then I realized: This has happened. I have to own it. I have to move forward," she said. "There was a part of me that was terribly naive—clearly, so naive. I have moments of rage, I have moments of confusion, I have moments of disbelief! And I have moments when I just cry for my children. What are their lives going to be?"
It was there that Chapman broke down, a moment the writer described as "almost unbearable to witness" as she talked about their two kids. "It's like, they love their dad. They love him," she said through tears. "I wasn't prepared to say any of that!"
As for why she's kept a low profile since October, she said this: "I was so humiliated and so broken ... that ... I, I, I ... didn't think it was respectful to go out," she said. "I thought, 'Who am I to be parading around with all of this going on? It's still so very, very raw.' I was walking up the stairs the other day and I stopped; it was like all the air had been punched out of my lungs."
She also revealed her fashion house didn't try to land any celebrities to wear their dresses during award season this year, saying she "didn't feel it was appropriate given the situation."
"All the women who have been hurt deserve dignity and respect, so I want to give it the time it deserves," she added. "It’s a time for mourning, really."
Scarlett Johansson broke the silent ban on the brand at the Met Gala on Monday night, as one of the first big names to wear Marchesa since the scandal. "I wore Marchesa because their clothes make women feel confident and beautiful and it is my pleasure to support a brand created by two incredibly talented and important female designers," the actress said defending her choice, something Anna Wintour echoed on "The Late Show with Stephen Colbert" last night.
"Georgina is a brilliant designer, and I don't think that she should be blamed for her husband's behavior," she told the late-night host. "I think it was a great gesture of support on Scarlett's part to wear a dress like -- a beautiful dress like that on such a public occasion."