"I didn't think that I would get caught," Dean admits. "I was drinking and using drugs. I was not dealing with things that happened to me in the past. It's not like I was looking for sex -- our relationship and sex life is solid."
"I have a brain that wants to kill me. I have a brain that wants me dead," he continues.
The couple is working to salvage their turbulent marriage, but the stress may have landed Spelling in the hospital.