Chris "CT" Tamburello is breaking is silence on the death of longtime love Diem Brown.
The reality TV star, who first met Brown on MTV's "The Challenge," just posted a heartbreaking message on Instagram.
"You have always been My Angel. And now you have your wings. We've been thru so much over the years. Thru the ups and downs we somehow managed to keep our promise. We never gave up on each other," he says.
"Our plan to be together forever hasn't changed... it's just going to take a little longer now," his statement continues. "And I'm going to hold onto this ring for you till we are together again. So don't worry mama, I'm not afraid. I know you will always be with me to give me your strength. You are The Love of My Life. My reason to be a better man. I Love You Always and Forever."
According to People, the two were not engaged or together at the time of her death -- and, while he visited her in her final days, he was not at the hospital when she passed. They were still very close.
Brown passed away after a long battle with cancer on November 14. She was 34.
Diem's funeral was held on Tuesday in NYC and was reportedly attended by Evan Starkman, Kenny Santucci, Mark Long, Johanna Botta, Ace Amerson, Paula Meronek, KellyAnne Judd, Ruthie Alcaide, Aneesa Ferriera, Laurel Stuckey, Cara Maria Sorbello, and Johnny "Bananas" Devenanzio.