"When I have the f------ greatest gift I've ever been given, it just put things into perspective."
Stassi Schroeder says pregnancy "saved" her from going down a dark path after she was fired from "Vanderpump Rules" following accusations of racist behavior.
In a clip from the premiere episode of her new "The Good, The Bad, The Baby" podcast, which she hosts with husband Beau Clark, Stassi explained how her pregnancy helped her through the scandal, noting that if she wasn't expecting at the time she would have possibly turned to drugs and alcohol.
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View Story"A lot of people think going through a hard time while you're pregnant, it's like, 'Oh man, that sucks.' I think [it] made me so much better to be pregnant while I was going through a hard time," began Stassi, who shared the clip on her Instagram Stories Tuesday. "If I wasn't pregnant, I think I probably would have just like gone to alcoholism, Xanax, all of these unhealthy things."
"I would have lashed out...dark passenger-ed," she added. "And I think our baby 100 percent saved me."
The former reality star, 33, said her pregnancy kept her "so positive all the time" and "put things into perspective."
"When I look back on this past year, to me it's filled with so much more happiness and thankfulness and gratitude than sadness," she explained, "because when I have the f------ greatest gift I've ever been given, it just put things into perspective."
On January 7, Stassi and Beau welcomed their daughter, Hartford Charlie Rose.
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Back in June, Stassi and Kristen Doute were axed from "Vanderpump Rules" after past racially insensitive remarks and actions against their co-star Faith Stowers resurfaced. Stassi confirmed her pregnancy four days later.
Stassi and Kristen were fired following an interview Faith did, in which she opened up about her experience as the only Black cast member during her time on the show. Faith -- who played a minor role in Season 4, before returning as a guest star in Season 6 -- accusing them of calling the police on her after they said she looked like a different Black woman who had been drugging and robbing men in Los Angeles at the time.
Following the interview, Stassi was dropped by her publicist and agent, as well as partnerships with razor brand Billie and Ritual vitamins.
The Bravo alum later issued a lengthy statement on Instagram, in which she apologized for her actions and to Faith in particular.
"Racially insensitive comments from my past have resurfaced. It is important that I continue to take accountability for what I have said and done, while pushing myself to do better," said Stassi in her apology. "I have grown significantly from the person I was then, and I am still filled with remorse and regret for the hurt that I caused," she continued. "I am grateful for the people in my life that continue to check me and push me to evolve into a more educated person."
"I also want to address my former castmate, Faith Stowers. My emotions over something that happened between our friends outweighed my logic, and there is no excuse for that," the statement went on. "I did not recognize then the serious ramifications that could have transpired because of my actions. What I did to Faith was wrong. I apologize and I do not expect forgiveness."
She concluded, "I am also sorry to anyone else that feels disappointed in me. I am going to continue to look closer at myself and my actions - to take the time to listen, to learn, and to take accountability for my own privilege."