"The Celtics made a choice to make my family business public, and I don't understand why," Long, 52, told The Cut. "It could've all been handled internally. I do understand why, but I can't talk about it. Maybe one day I will. You know, fear drives stupidity, and I'll leave that right there. I've learned that I'm stronger than I ever thought I was."
The "You People" star -- who shares 11-year-old son Kez with Udoka -- said her son is her "only focus" at the moment, noting that he's "having a really tough time."
"I'm sure I have some things that I'm suppressing, but I have to do that to take care of him first," she added. "That's the giving. It's natural. I'm sure I'll have to circle back with myself several times to reconcile things. But the one thing I'm trying not to harbor is anger."
Long went on to share that it's not hard for her to discuss the scandal, but she doesn't "wanna talk about it because it's personal and I’m still figuring it out."
She added, "I'm still going, 'Wait, did this really happen?' Because, you know, you're with someone for 12, 13 years, you think you know them."
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However, the "Boyz n the Hood" actress said she's grateful for the support she's received, sharing that it "saved my life."
"It saved my mental well-being because I felt uplifted by the community in a way that felt like my family was checking in and making sure I was okay," Long told The Cut. "And that, I appreciated. I have that for people like Beyoncé. I look at her, and I'm so proud of her because I know how difficult it is to sustain and manage everything she has in her life. My life is probably a smaller version of that."
She added that she believes "race matters" when it comes to how the public will rally behind someone.
"Black women that are dynamic and famous and there to inspire are also required to be exceptional, and sometimes I just get tired of being strong. That's my biggest thing: I don’t want to have to be strong. I would like to just have an experience that's pleasant," Long explained. "But the difference comes down to race. Race matters and makes a difference in your experiences and the way people treat you, respect you, and regard you -- and the way people protect you. Malcolm X said the least protected person in America is the Black woman. That quote resonates big time in my life right now."
When asked if she's "a crier" and "embrace[s]" these emotions, Long admitted, "Oh my God, I cry. I don't cry as much as I used to. I don't know if that’s a good or bad thing, but I do check in with myself and let people know how I feel, for better or worse. 'Cause I’m not holding on to nonsense."