In an email the 26-year-old reportedly shared with the London branch of the organization, she describes what it was like training to become an auditor.
In an email the 26-year-old reportedly shared with the London branch of the organization, she describes what it was like training to become an auditor. Scientology auditors undergo an exhaustive training program to guide people through a self-examination process using an electropsychometer or E-meter.
The letter was obtained by Tony Ortega, a prominent critic of the church.
Bella's letter, according to Ortega, reads as follows:
WE ALL NEED TO DO THIS.
Wow. What an accomplishment.
I've written this success many, many times over in my head. I want to get it just right. But now that it's time and I've forgotten many of my mentally penned notes, here comes the real one.
This journey started with my training, and even that was a bullbait. I knew I needed it, but every fibre of my being fought me on it. Said I was the PC, that if I did ,it I'd get nothing from it, and many more delightful little criticisms. I was overwhelmed before I started.
Finally, I got through that, and what a ride. It was incredible, but I was BIs at the end. I had gotten SO much out of it, but there was something missing, and it really was messing with me. Hard. I couldn't figure out what it was.
The next thing was internship, and lord knows I was not into it. I tried to get into it, but it was even worse than the training. I had so many reasons and excuses as to why I didn't need to do it and how it just wasn't right for me.
It turned out it was exactly what I needed. I dragged out the testing and correction, just made it through the drilling and then finally began my auditing adventure, and wow, I wasn't prepared. This IS what I had been searching for. The missing piece. Suddenly, everything began to make sense. My metering... Wow. It became clear I actually knew my metering. Even to the point of having any slight doubt on a read. I know it wasn't a read. Beautiful thing about drilling, of course. The tech that I felt was wavering and on the verge of disappearing from my mind became part of me. I know it. Like really know it to the point that it's just there, man. I never thought I could know something like that.
I became that annoying girl in the org who would just talk endlessly about how incredible training is and how phenomenal the internship is. I'm sure a few people couldn't deal, just like I couldn't. But I won't stop with that because now I KNOW.
We all need to do this. It's hard work. It's a lot of effort. It's a few meltdowns and running to the bathroom to have a mini episode, but it is worth everything because you will get through. This is a gift to yourself and so many others. It doesn't matter if you aren't going to be an auditor or aren't going to join staff. If you are going to make it as a being for the long run, you NEED this. That's the truth. You won't stay Clear or OT without it. So stop messing around and get going.
The internship, for me, is what made me a Scientologist. I don't just believe the tech works now. I know without any doubt that it does.
Thank you to my dad for everything. To Cass. To Tash. I would have drowned in my own problems if you hadn't been there to sup me or get me through the preliminaries. And every other single person from the C/S to the Qualifications Sec, who has taken even just a minute of time to help me get through. It took a whole family and org to get me here. So thank you to all for the endless support and to those who saw me in my moments. Thank you for seeing me to the end. This isn't just my product but yours as well.
Thank you to COB. This wouldn't be here without you. I can't even begin to describe. It would take me a few centuries.
Thank you to LRH, on so many levels. I'd need another few centuries to even find the words.
In the purported letter, Bella not only thanks her famous dad, who became involved with the church in 1990 through his first wife, Mimi Rogers, but she also expresses gratitude to her aunt, the actor's sister, Cass Mapother.
The young designer's final two mentions are to "COB" (the church's chairman of the board, David Miscavige) and "LRH" (Scientology founder L. Ron Hubbard).
Bella currently resides in England. She made headlines in 2015 for her marriage to Max Parker but has otherwise remained out of the spotlight. Last year, she launched a clothing line called BKC, which stands for Bella Kidman Cruise. Bella's brother, 24-year-old Connor Cruise, is also said to be a member of the church.
Nicole left Scientology in the '90s before her marriage to Tom ended in 2000. In November of last year, the actress spoke about her relationship with her oldest children, telling the Hollywood Foreign Press Association, "They are able to make their own decisions. They have made choices to be Scientologists, and as a mother, it's my job to love them."
Bella and Connor were adopted by Tom and Nicole in 1992 and 1995, respectively.
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