John Cena and Nikki Bella called off their wedding and relationship last month in a joint statement they shared on Instagram, but Cena certainly made it sound like it was Nikki's decision to split in a "Today" show interview Monday morning.
"It's up and it's down. I've always been honest with you guys, but I also don't want to ruin your viewers' morning by giving a bowl of sadness soup," the WWE superstar and actor told Kathie Lee Gifford and Hoda Kotb. It's been incredibly reflective, which is amazing, but it is very difficult. I had my heart broken out of nowhere -- or for me, it was out of nowhere. And anyone who has experienced that knows that it comes with a series of bad feelings."
"For anyone out there speculating on what I am doing with my life now, I still love Nicole. I still would love to marry Nicole. I still would love to have a family with Nicole," he added. "There was an unfortunate set of circumstances where our relationship ended."
"There has been a lot of speculation recently about me being seen in public, and everybody is thinking like, 'Oh, John Cena is enjoying the single life.' No, I was supposed to be married and having a honeymoon over these two weeks. It is the first time in 15 years that I have taken a vacation," Cena said. "I am in my house alone surrounded by these emotionally strong memories, and every day from 6 to 9, I get out of the house and talk to strangers [for] social interaction."
"I don't want anybody else -- I love Nicole. And I'm really trying to support her in finding whatever it is that she wants that made this fall apart in the first place," he said. "I don't have any other hopes other than that maybe one day we can work it out."
Another indicator Nikki may have been the one to end things with Cena is an exchange she had with her sister, Brie Bella, which will air on Season 3 of "Total Bellas."
In the sneak peek below, Nikki and Brie engaged in a heavy conversation about Nikki's then-fiancé. Nikki and John dated for 6 years until he agreed to marry her in an over-the-top proposal during WrestleMania33. But as documented on previous seasons of "Total Divas," marriage was never something Cena really wanted for himself.
"I don't understand why you have to walk on eggshells with him with this wedding," Brie said to her sister. "It's like absolutely ridiculous."
"No, it's been a lot of fun, so don't make it negative," Nikki responded.
"I'm not making it negative," Brie said. "Sometimes you just tiptoe around John to not make him angry, and I think that's bullshit."
"Isn't that what wives are supposed to do?" Nikki solemnly asked while swirling her wine around.
"F-ck no!" Brie responded immediately. "I tell Brian exactly how I feel all the time. I don't hold back, ever. It bothers me because I know what you want."
Nikki told her sister that what she really wants is to get married, and that she's "not gonna ruin that."
"You have made a lot of sacrifices," Brie said. "It's about time John starts making some."
Nikki tried to convince her sister John had made sacrifices by saying, "He wasn't gonna get married, and now he is."
"Oh, boo hoo, I feel so bad for him," Brie replied. "He's freaking lucky he's marrying you, and it bothers me that you're gonna sacrifice all of it just 'cause you're grateful that John proposed to you."
At the end of the exchange, Nikki suggested she and her sister "agree to disagree," but Brie wouldn't stand for it.
"No, let's agree that if you don't talk to John then I will," she responded.
"Total Bellas" Season 3 premieres Sunday, May 20 at 9 p.m. on E!