"I didn't know how to feel. I was like, 'That didn't just happen.' I [told him] 'I need to go,'" Jordyn recalled of the February incident, where she found herself at the same house party as the NBA star. "I was leaving already so I walked out immediately. I got in the car. I was in shock."
"You know that saying, 'I feel so alone in a room full of people'? I went through a phase of thinking, 'I'm going to isolate myself, because I don't know how I feel. I don't know what the right thing to do is,'" she added.
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In a "Red Table Talk" interview that took place 10 days after news of the scandal broke, Jordyn told Jada Pinkett Smith that her biggest mistake was not initially telling Khloe and Kylie that the kiss took place. She told Cosmo she needed time to process the situation and have a chat with the man upstairs.
"I just need[ed] some time by myself to try to understand what [was] happening, why it [was] happening, and how am I going to react to this internally, you know? How can I make things right with myself, with God and with my relationships? It took some time off in order for me to have a level head on how I should react," she explained, noting she had no desire to clap back at Khloe's post-RTT tweet calling Jordyn a liar and naming her the reason her family broke up.
"I don't believe in clapping back, or reacting out of emotion," Jordyn said. "I could have handled this a million different ways, but I just went with what felt the most natural to me. Would I ever have wanted this to happen? Never. But shit happens. And in the end, I never want to see anyone hurt; I would hate to be the reason for anyone's pain. We all have to go to sleep with ourselves at night."
Jordyn said her subsequent need to see what people were saying and writing about her online became "addictive."
"When I would look at my name and see all of the things that people were saying, it became like a tumour. It became cancerous to me," she said, noting she received everything from name-calling ("home wrecker" and "snake") to actual death threats.
Despite having 2,347 Instagram posts and 10.3 million Instagram followers, Jordyn considers herself a private person.
"I don't really care to share my whole life on social media, because certain things are special and once you share it, you open yourself up to people's opinions," she said. "People got to see me at my most vulnerable moment without even really knowing me, because I don't showcase who I am, really."
On the topic of "being canceled," which happens quite often in the year 2019, Jordyn said, "The internet feels so entitled to have opinions about everything, but a lot of it is bullshit. These are real people, with real lives. People are so detached that they don't feel empathy, they don't feel bad, they don't realise that the one message that you sent laughing at someone could be the message that pushes that person off the ledge."
So where exactly does Jordyn stand with Kylie? After all, the billionaire makeup mogul just recently unfollowed Jordyn on Instagram after the latter was seen dancing nearby another NBA star and another of Khloe's exes, James Harden, at a nightclub.
"I love her. That's my homie," Jordyn said of Kylie. "I hope everything falls into place and that we can all grow and build our relationships with our family and God and come back together one day and be stronger and happier."
She added, "A lot of people can be around when things are good, but you don't know who's really around until things are bad."
When the Cosmo reporter asked Jordyn what she hoped people would take away from the interview, she said, "It's not about public statements for me and it's unfortunate that something so private had to happen publicly... Let's stick together. The world is so crazy. Our politics, our wars, our this, that and the other, the last thing we need is to start going against each other about things on social media. Let's be better humans and learn from our mistakes."
"I've had to grow up in front of everyone's eyes -- between losing my dad, this, relationships, whatever it is," she concluded. "I've had to deal with so much, [but] my life could be way worse."