"It's not the trolls," she wrote on Instagram on Thursday. "The trolls I can deal with, although it weighs on you."
UPDATE at 9:15 AM PT on March 25, 2021
Teigen further explained her decision to leave Twitter in an Instagram post on Thursday morning.
"It's true! The platform no longer serves me as positively as it does negatively, so with that I bid you adieu. But I want to say that this is absolutely NOT Twitter's fault - I believe they do all they can to combat relentless bullying, any honestly, it's not the bullying!!" she wrote.
"You guys have no idea how much they've reached out and worked with my team and me personally. It's not the platform. It's not the 'bullying.' And it's not the trolls," she continued. "The trolls I can deal with, although it weighs on you. It's just me. I have to come to terms with the fact some people aren't gonna like me. I hate letting people down or upsetting people and I feel like I just did it over and over and over. Someone can't read that they disappointed you in some way every single day, all day without physically absorbing that energy."'
"I can feel it in my bones. And to the Q anon people who think I'm in Guantanamo Bay right now, lol," she concluded. "I saw 'Q: into the storm' and saw what I'm working with here. And I, lol, I no longer care. Don't flatter yourselves."
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Is it even still Twitter if Chrissy Teigen isn't part of it? The social media platform found out what that world looks like after the queen of the clapback's Twitter page went dark.
It turns out that being in the center of a constant barrage of online abuse over everything from sharing recipes to silly jokes to even opening up about her recent miscarriage became too much for the woman so many thought was unflappable.
"I encourage you to know and never forget that your words matter," she wrote as part of her lengthy farewell thread. "I've taken so many small, 2-follower count punches that at this point, I am honestly deeply bruised."
It may come as no surprise that the same subculture of Twitter that she's talking about helped elevate her into the top trending topics for her major decision after a decade on the platform.
Reactions to her decision were pretty evenly divided between her supporters saddened by the decision and angry at those people who bullied her into stepping away, and those self-same bullies celebrating a so-called victory. They were thrilled that they'd made her so miserable over something that used to bring her joy that she felt she had to abandon it.
"It's time for me to say goodbye," wrote Teigen as part of her farewell. "This no longer serves me as positively as it serves me negatively, and I think that's the right time to call something."
She also addressed the oft-used descriptor of her as a clapback queen, writing, "My goal is to make people happy. I've always been portrayed as the strong clap back girl but I'm just not."
She went on to say that she's allowed her "desire to be liked and fear of pissing people off" affect how she uses Twitter, admitting that it's shaped her into "a different human than I started out here as!"
While admitting that she's grown over the years in part because of being held accountable by her followers, but in all those years she never "learned how to block out the negativity."
Ultimately, she just owned her reality. "I'm just a sensitive shit, okay!?" she wrote. "I don't wanna be this way! I just am!"
In concluding her thread, she summed up her decade-long experience with Twitter and her followers, saying "I love you guys and I cherish our time together, I truly do. I also hate you."
You can check out a cross-section of reactions to Teigen's huge decision below. And for her fans who will miss keeping up with her, she does appear to be remaining active on Instagram, at least for the time being.
Chrissy Teigen quitting Twitter is a really, really bad reflection on the company's ability to fight abuse. She wasn't just some famous person. She was a power user, and a fan favorite internally (she spoke at Twitter's company-wide retreat in early 2020). This one will sting. https://t.co/eqhbyNKHJM
Also, once I was at a party and I was a loner and felt so out of place. One of the only people who made me feel comfortable was Chrissy Teigen. She joked with me. She was warm towards me. She made me feel seen.
chrissy teigen is one of a handful — and I mean a tiny handful — of voices on the left who are smart and not in denial. one of the few who isn’t merely a liberal with career goals. i get she makes you uncomfortable — that’s a good thing! leftists should be outraged by her ban. pic.twitter.com/7hc1HfOu3Q
So Chrissy Teigen deleted her account. So basically a woman of color who is grieving the loss of a child and simply wanted to share funny thoughts and yummy recipes was bullied to such an extreme that she had to leave in order to protect her mental health. Good job sucky people. pic.twitter.com/0opttM0Eke