"I have to understand how the worst thing to ever happen or come into my life, how did they give me the best thing to ever happen in my life? It is such a mind f---," Lala said during a December 2021 appearance on an episode of the "Not Skinny But Not Fat" podcast.
Lala said she had her "head in the sand for a really long time" before she came to terms with the reality of her situation.
"The second that I felt unsafe -- I said this in therapy -- I said, 'The second I get a pit in my stomach, it'll be a different conversation,'" she said of the moment she decided to leave. "I got that pit and I got the f--- out. No questions asked."